a line allows progress, a circle does not

littleladykins asked: Do you remember when we first met and we started texting you said "Can we talk for a really long time?" And I thought you meant that day but you said "No, for a few years" Did you ever expect to fall in love with me? ... I was so young. I wish our lives were different. But I will always look up to you, you helped shape me into who I am today whether you realize it or not

Of course I remember that. I remember everything. How do you wish our lives were different?

littleladykins asked: I'm rereading all of your posts and some of them make me sad.... What happened to us?

I don’t really know exactly what happened to us. I fell in love with you and I suppose I let it get the best of me.

Genuine love is rarely an emotional space where needs are instantly gratified. To know love we have to invest time and commitment… dreaming that love will save us, solve all our problems or provide a steady state of bliss or security only keeps us stuck in wishful fantasy, undermining the real power of love — which is to transform us.

this is something i need to remind myself alot. i am so impatient, sometimes it really fucks things up for me.

—bell hooks (via queerfatfemme)

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there are so many things that i wish to happen and things that i feel helpless against. i am quite unsatisfied with my life right now, im in a sort of rut that seems to get deeper and deeper. i want progress, and i want to attain my goals. it seems even the simplest ones, like getting a job, turns out to be one the of the biggest obstacles in my way. its a strange place that i find myself in. its times like these that i tend to move out of town in search for something that isnt here, or thats hiding at least. the baby steps are turning into size 13, and right now im only an eight and a half.

Our past isn’t what truly matters, it’s where we are at because of it is what we should always remember.

mashkwi:

The government advocates the vaccination of children (and adults) but they often omit to inform the general public of what is contained in these vaccinations and the possible side-effects of having these shots administered. 

I STRONGLY suggest watching this video. I know it’s long but watch it! Watch all of it!
The pharmaceutical companies that create vaccines and the doctors who administer them act as if they know better than you. 
They say you should trust them. 
If they are so trustworthy, why wont they give you the answers to your questions when you ask: What is in that needle? What are the risks? Is it necessary for my baby? How does it work?
They are hiding an ugly truth from you that’s why.


Personal anecdote:
 In Grade 4 they injected all of us with the Hepatitis B vaccine for the 2nd time. A few minutes after my injection, I was not feeling very well, I had the spins and was nauseous, my teacher tells me to go see the nurses who are still here. They assured me that there was no way what I was feeling was related to what they had injected in me: it is IMPOSSIBLE they said. Told me it was because I was nervous and to just drink water. So I did and I tried to shut up about it. A few hours later during lunch period my friend suddenly yells: What is wrong with your ARM? The arm that had gotten injected had swollen to about twice it’s normal size, my fingers were numb and tingly and it was turning a purplish color. Once at the doctor’s office they examined me and came to the conclusion that it was indeed an allergic reaction (duh!). They give me penicillin, bad idea: I am allergic to that too! I stayed swelled up, itchy, purple, numb with baboon lips and sausage fingers for about 4 months.  I got lucky I only swelled externally. My allergic reaction was to something they injected me intravenously. I could have died. 

Thimerosal is a mercury-containing organic compound (an organomercurial). Since the 1930s, it has been widely used as a preservative in a number of biological and drug products, including many vaccines.
Thimerosal was tested only once, by Eli Lilly on 22 adult patients suffering from meningitis. There was no chance for follow-up to observe long-term effects, as all of the patients in this ’study’ died, so was known as early as April 1930 to be dangerous, yet they used this study to claim safety
Thimerosal is metabolized to ethylmercury (CH3CH2Hg+2) and thiosalicylate. It contains 49.6% mercury by weight.

Please watch!!  
Thimerosal Content of Vaccines Used in Canada
Vaccines approved for use in Canada may contain the following:
no thimerosal: these are single-dose preparations in which thimerosal has not been used in any part of the manufacturing process;
trace amounts of thimerosal (< 1.0 µg/dose) if the preservative has been used in the production process but not added to serve a preservative function in the final product;
thimerosal added as a preservative. Such vaccines are typically those supplied in multi-dose vials with thimerosal added in varying concentrations to prevent contamination with other serious infectious agents. The amount of mercury per dose varies from 2 to 50 µg per 0.5 mL dose.

The hypocrisy of the belief that ingesting mercury is toxic yet injecting it is supposed to be safe is amazing. Why do so few people get it?

Humans risk ingesting dangerous levels of mercury when they eat contaminated fish. Since the poison is odorless, invisible and accumulates in the meat of the fish, it is not easy to detect and can’t be avoided by trimming off the skin or other parts.
Once in the human body, mercury acts as a neurotoxin, interfering with the brain and nervous system.
Exposure to mercury can be particularly hazardous for pregnant women and small children. During the first several years of life, a child’s brain is still developing and rapidly absorbing nutrients. Prenatal and infant mercury exposure can cause mental retardation, cerebral palsy, deafness and blindness. Even in low doses, mercury may affect a child’s development, delaying walking and talking, shortening attention span and causing learning disabilities.
In adults, mercury poisoning can adversely affect fertility and blood pressure regulation and can cause memory loss, tremors, vision loss and numbness of the fingers and toes. A growing body of evidence suggests that exposure to mercury may also lead to heart disease.

Starting at two months of age, most babies are injected with the following vaccines: Diphtheria, Tetanus, acellular Pertussis, Polio, Act-HIB (haemophilus influenza B), Hepatitis B, 7 valent Pneumococcal vaccine, Meningococcal C vaccine. Babies may be injected with as many as 8 vaccines concurrently. 

In 1983 the required Injections from birth to 6 years old was 10 shots with 30 vac-cines. Now in 2010 is 36 shots with 109 vaccines loaded with harmful chemicals, Aluminum, Mercury, Formaldehyde proven to cause neurological dis-orders plus injecting RNA/DNA of animals. Will your child’s DNA be the same?



ALUMINUM IN VACCINES

“Aluminum is well demonstrated as a neurotoxin,” said Chris Shaw, a UBC professor of ophthalmology and visual sciences who cowrote the recently published studyAluminum Vaccine Adjuvants: Are They Safe? with lead author Lucija Tomljenovic. “Yes, these are small amounts, for sure, but what can small amounts do? If a small amount can hyperdrive the immune system, it can do something else, and it appears to contribute to motor-neuron loss.”

How does aluminum behave in your body?
Once ingested, aluminum accumulates in various tissues in the body, including the kidneys, brain, lungs, liver and thyroid. Aluminum competes with calcium for absorption and it can result in reduced skeletal mineralization. In infants this retards growth. It also interferes with phosphorous absorption, zinc and selenium.l
Aluminum toxicity has been recognized in many settings where exposure is heavy or prolonged, where renal function is limited, or where apreviously accumulated bone burden is released in stress or illness. Toxicity may include: encephalopathy (stuttering, gait disturbance, myoclonic jerks, seizures, coma, abnormal EEG) osteomalacia or aplastic bone disease ( associated with painful spontaneous fractures, hypercalcemia, tumorous calcinosis ) proximal myopathy, increased risk of infection, increased left ventricular mass and decreased myocardial function microcytic anemia with very high levels, sudden death.
 Aluminum has also been viewed as one of the potential causes of Alzheimer’s disease and dementia. 

Squalene:
  Injected squalene, even a few molecules of injected squalene, causes the body to attack itself on a rampage of auto immune destruction like an army gone mad and turned on its countryOil-based vaccination adjuvants like squalene have been proved to generate concentrated, unremitting immune responses over long periods of time according to a 2000 article in The American Journal of Pathology. The study demonstrated that a single injection of the adjuvant squalene into rats triggered a chronic, immune-mediated joint-specific inflammation, also known as rheumatoid arthritis. The researchers concluded the study raised questions about the role of adjuvants in chronic inflammatory diseases.
According to Dr. Viera Scheibner, Ph.D., a former principle research scientist for the government of Australia:

“… this adjuvant [squalene] contributed to the cascade of reactions called “Gulf War Syndrome,” documented in the soldiers involved in the Gulf War.
The symptoms they developed included arthritis, fibromyalgia, lymphadenopathy, rashes, photosensitive rashes, malar rashes, chronic fatigue, chronic headaches, abnormal body hair loss, non-healing skin lesions, aphthous ulcers, dizziness, weakness, memory loss, seizures, mood changes, neuropsychiatric problems, anti-thyroid effects, anaemia, elevated ESR (erythrocyte sedimentation rate), systemic lupus erythematosus, multiple sclerosis, ALS (amyotrophic lateral sclerosis), Raynaud’s phenomenon, Sjorgren’s syndrome, chronic diarrhoea, night sweats and low-grade fevers.”[xii]


Vaccination Nation
TOO MANY TOXIC CONTENTS IN OUR VACCINES TO LET THIS GO ON!Singling out each individual vaccine ingredient as a detriment to the health of our children makes no sense. First we removed thimerosal from certain vaccines, despite contentions from the medical community that no real medical reasons existed to do so. Now we focus on aluminum. What about formaldehyde or Polysorbate-80? Are we going to wait to hear about their damaging effects before we demand that they be removed? All vaccine ingredients are poisonous, carcinogenic or potentially harmful to the skin, gastrointestinal, pulmonary, immune and neurological systems. We must examine both the individual as well as the interactive effects of all vaccine ingredients to understand their potential harm on human tissue and function
I don’t want to be a human guinea pig.

mashkwi:

The government advocates the vaccination of children (and adults) but they often omit to inform the general public of what is contained in these vaccinations and the possible side-effects of having these shots administered. 

I STRONGLY suggest watching this video. I know it’s long but watch it! Watch all of it!

The pharmaceutical companies that create vaccines and the doctors who administer them act as if they know better than you. 

They say you should trust them. 

If they are so trustworthy, why wont they give you the answers to your questions when you ask: What is in that needle? What are the risks? Is it necessary for my baby? How does it work?

They are hiding an ugly truth from you that’s why.

Personal anecdote:

 In Grade 4 they injected all of us with the Hepatitis B vaccine for the 2nd time. A few minutes after my injection, I was not feeling very well, I had the spins and was nauseous, my teacher tells me to go see the nurses who are still here. They assured me that there was no way what I was feeling was related to what they had injected in me: it is IMPOSSIBLE they said. Told me it was because I was nervous and to just drink water. So I did and I tried to shut up about it. A few hours later during lunch period my friend suddenly yells: What is wrong with your ARM? The arm that had gotten injected had swollen to about twice it’s normal size, my fingers were numb and tingly and it was turning a purplish color. Once at the doctor’s office they examined me and came to the conclusion that it was indeed an allergic reaction (duh!). They give me penicillin, bad idea: I am allergic to that too! I stayed swelled up, itchy, purple, numb with baboon lips and sausage fingers for about 4 months.  I got lucky I only swelled externally. My allergic reaction was to something they injected me intravenously. I could have died. 

Thimerosal is a mercury-containing organic compound (an organomercurial). Since the 1930s, it has been widely used as a preservative in a number of biological and drug products, including many vaccines.

Thimerosal was tested only once, by Eli Lilly on 22 adult patients suffering from meningitis. There was no chance for follow-up to observe long-term effects, as all of the patients in this study died, so was known as early as April 1930 to be dangerous, yet they used this study to claim safety

Thimerosal is metabolized to ethylmercury (CH3CH2Hg+2) and thiosalicylate. It contains 49.6% mercury by weight.


Please watch!!  

Thimerosal Content of Vaccines Used in Canada

Vaccines approved for use in Canada may contain the following:

  • no thimerosal: these are single-dose preparations in which thimerosal has not been used in any part of the manufacturing process;
  • trace amounts of thimerosal (< 1.0 µg/dose) if the preservative has been used in the production process but not added to serve a preservative function in the final product;
  • thimerosal added as a preservative. Such vaccines are typically those supplied in multi-dose vials with thimerosal added in varying concentrations to prevent contamination with other serious infectious agents. The amount of mercury per dose varies from 2 to 50 µg per 0.5 mL dose.

The hypocrisy of the belief that ingesting mercury is toxic yet injecting it is supposed to be safe is amazing. Why do so few people get it?

Humans risk ingesting dangerous levels of mercury when they eat contaminated fish. Since the poison is odorless, invisible and accumulates in the meat of the fish, it is not easy to detect and can’t be avoided by trimming off the skin or other parts.

Once in the human body, mercury acts as a neurotoxin, interfering with the brain and nervous system.

Exposure to mercury can be particularly hazardous for pregnant women and small children. During the first several years of life, a child’s brain is still developing and rapidly absorbing nutrients. Prenatal and infant mercury exposure can cause mental retardation, cerebral palsy, deafness and blindness. Even in low doses, mercury may affect a child’s development, delaying walking and talking, shortening attention span and causing learning disabilities.

In adults, mercury poisoning can adversely affect fertility and blood pressure regulation and can cause memory loss, tremors, vision loss and numbness of the fingers and toes. A growing body of evidence suggests that exposure to mercury may also lead to heart disease.

Starting at two months of age, most babies are injected with the following vaccines: Diphtheria, Tetanus, acellular Pertussis, Polio, Act-HIB (haemophilus influenza B), Hepatitis B, 7 valent Pneumococcal vaccine, Meningococcal C vaccine. Babies may be injected with as many as 8 vaccines concurrently. 

In 1983 the required Injections from birth to 6 years old was 10 shots with 30 vac-cines. Now in 2010 is 36 shots with 109 vaccines loaded with harmful chemicals, Aluminum, Mercury, Formaldehyde proven to cause neurological dis-orders plus injecting RNA/DNA of animals. Will your child’s DNA be the same?

ALUMINUM IN VACCINES

“Aluminum is well demonstrated as a neurotoxin,” said Chris Shaw, a UBC professor of ophthalmology and visual sciences who cowrote the recently published studyAluminum Vaccine Adjuvants: Are They Safe? with lead author Lucija Tomljenovic. “Yes, these are small amounts, for sure, but what can small amounts do? If a small amount can hyperdrive the immune system, it can do something else, and it appears to contribute to motor-neuron loss.”

How does aluminum behave in your body?

Once ingested, aluminum accumulates in various tissues in the body, including the kidneys, brain, lungs, liver and thyroid. Aluminum competes with calcium for absorption and it can result in reduced skeletal mineralization. In infants this retards growth. It also interferes with phosphorous absorption, zinc and selenium.l

Aluminum toxicity has been recognized in many settings where exposure is heavy or prolonged, where renal function is limited, or where apreviously accumulated bone burden is released in stress or illness. Toxicity may include: encephalopathy (stuttering, gait disturbance, myoclonic jerks, seizures, coma, abnormal EEG) osteomalacia or aplastic bone disease ( associated with painful spontaneous fractures, hypercalcemia, tumorous calcinosis ) proximal myopathy, increased risk of infection, increased left ventricular mass and decreased myocardial function microcytic anemia with very high levels, sudden death.

 
Aluminum has also been viewed as one of the potential causes of Alzheimer’s disease and dementia. 

Squalene:


  Injected squalene, even a few molecules of injected squalene, causes the body to attack itself on a rampage of auto immune destruction like an army gone mad and turned on its country
Oil-based vaccination adjuvants like squalene have been proved to generate concentrated, unremitting immune responses over long periods of time according to a 2000 article in The American Journal of Pathology. The study demonstrated that a single injection of the adjuvant squalene into rats triggered a chronic, immune-mediated joint-specific inflammation, also known as rheumatoid arthritis. The researchers concluded the study raised questions about the role of adjuvants in chronic inflammatory diseases.

According to Dr. Viera Scheibner, Ph.D., a former principle research scientist for the government of Australia:

“… this adjuvant [squalene] contributed to the cascade of reactions called “Gulf War Syndrome,” documented in the soldiers involved in the Gulf War.

The symptoms they developed included arthritis, fibromyalgia, lymphadenopathy, rashes, photosensitive rashes, malar rashes, chronic fatigue, chronic headaches, abnormal body hair loss, non-healing skin lesions, aphthous ulcers, dizziness, weakness, memory loss, seizures, mood changes, neuropsychiatric problems, anti-thyroid effects, anaemia, elevated ESR (erythrocyte sedimentation rate), systemic lupus erythematosus, multiple sclerosis, ALS (amyotrophic lateral sclerosis), Raynaud’s phenomenon, Sjorgren’s syndrome, chronic diarrhoea, night sweats and low-grade fevers.”[xii]

Vaccination Nation

TOO MANY TOXIC CONTENTS IN OUR VACCINES TO LET THIS GO ON!
Singling out each individual vaccine ingredient as a detriment to the health of our children makes no sense. First we removed thimerosal from certain vaccines, despite contentions from the medical community that no real medical reasons existed to do so. Now we focus on aluminum. What about formaldehyde or Polysorbate-80? Are we going to wait to hear about their damaging effects before we demand that they be removed? All vaccine ingredients are poisonous, carcinogenic or potentially harmful to the skin, gastrointestinal, pulmonary, immune and neurological systems. We must examine both the individual as well as the interactive effects of all vaccine ingredients to understand their potential harm on human tissue and function

I don’t want to be a human guinea pig.


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